student no more...

yes, sadly but fact!

today was the defending of my thesis "Administration of Ministry of Justice" in my Second major, Public Administration... After my exam of italian passed on sunday, today (or yesterday) i was almost in despair.. i had a thesis, written by me for about a weekend one year ago, with not perfectly updated legislative content, with a not excellent recension, with a brain, boiled in the summer heat.... and after 3 hours waiting for the Faculty and Academic councils to fulfill their job, finally was given the opportunity to defend my thesis... ok... partially.. cause with the huge amount of pages and the last days news on the EU critics about the Juridical system in BG, all the three of the Examining Committee were asking me about that..and i defended myself, not my thesis, saying that i cant comment hypothetical EU reports or articles in newspapers.. So, they said - ok then, You are into the system- tell us.. and i just flooded them into what have seen during my internships...

And the result was that i have 6 for the state exam and i am graduating with 5.81/6 my second major! Higher than my first one! Such a shame! :D

When the Examining Committee announced me their decision about my thesis, the Professors said that they had no argue about my esteem, wished me luck and with one signature my status studendi was terminated and cut off...

This was the ending of 18 years of studying... This is all i have done in my life... this is all i know how to do... This is in what i am best... *pouts* weird is this feeling...

I want to go abroad, study more, maybe another mastership, or PhD... but how? Sometimes i wonder if i am worthy indeed..

time for bed!

nite!

Eden

Cross fingers!!! And pray! For me!

Eden says:
my thesis defending is on tuesday
CliVit says:
oh
Eden says:
yeah... i am trying to do the resume of my thesis... it is hard :(
CliVit says:
I can understand that it is yes
CliVit says:
I wish you strength and courage
Eden says:
thank you :)
Eden says:
some inspiration wont be bad too
CliVit says:
the thesis muse must be around
Eden says:
hope so...
Eden says:
maybe taking a nap ;)
CliVit says:
well the ideal is to rest well before
CliVit says:
I've never been able to manage that though
Eden says:
i was talking about the muse...that maybe she is taking a nap at the moment
Eden says:
*chuckles.. neither did i!
CliVit says:
hehe ok I see
CliVit says:
we have to make some noise to wake the muse up
CliVit says:
how long does your defending last?
Eden says:
usually, when a lot of people defend.. it takes them 4-5 minutes
Eden says:
but this time i will be the only one..
CliVit says:
ok I understand the problem
Eden says:
and what is it?
CliVit says:
it will take more than 5 minutes?
CliVit says:
I'm not sure if it's a problem for you though
Eden says:
well....
Eden says:
there are a lot of probs...
Eden says:
1st..the topic of my thesis is very stupid
Eden says:
2nd. my scientific adviser advised me nothing, so, my thesis has to thesis given, no aims, no final opinion..nothing.. it is like a book..
Eden says:
3. i wrote it one year ago and not only that i dont remember what i wrote about, but also 80%of my thesis is..retelling laws.. and laws are now changed..but not in my thesis..
Eden says:
4.tomorrow the recension will be ready..
Eden says:
and i hope he/she won't notice my mistakes and will be good with me and my thesis..but if not?
Eden says:
5. today was my exam in italian and i still have no ready resume, which i have to know for tuesday, and besides.... i have 100 pages for to learn the structures and function of the administration of Ministry of Justice and all the changes since 1878 till now...
Eden says:
:)
Eden says:
so...
CliVit says:
taking a nap was not that a good advice maybe
Eden says:
6. the big problem is..what will they ask? what if i dont remember it?
Eden says:
i already took a nap
CliVit says:
you're fresh and ready now!
CliVit says:
and the muse will come in the end
Eden says:
i am going for ice cream
Eden says:
you know..... ice cream helps for everything..
CliVit says:
I know! you taught me
Eden says:
thinking of it...i have to add this to the list for the ice cream cure...
Eden says:
ice cream- brings the thesis muse around :D
CliVit says:
sure it does
Eden says:
*blushes..did i?
CliVit says:
that's proven
Eden says:
haha, here still not
Eden says:
but...................... i trust the thesis for the ice cream...
Eden says:
see, it is already working... one day i could write a thesis for the ice cream as an universal cure..
Eden says:
:)))))
CliVit says:
the muse is already knocking at the door
Eden says:
yeah, yeah
Eden says:
i am running out for the ice cream before she is gone :P
Eden says:
kisses
Eden says:
later
CliVit says:
bye

Cave Canem!

or... let's plan together!

Eden,
the exhausted bitch

Jim...

Today, on 3rd July 1971 Jim Morrison was found dead in his bath tube, in a hotel room in Paris... Jim est mort...
But years after that we, the lizard king followers, we still remember Him, listen to His music and feel His undying magic..

The Frames - Falling Slowly

This song was a very important part of a nice movie i saw few monts ago thanks to Oggi and His Irish friend...
By a chance i found it an i am sharing it with You, also recommending the movie :)

It is the best choice for not famous musicians, who are inspired and learn to believe... :)

lazy summer thoughts over the sticking to the Law...

The first thing that a girl learns when she reaches second year at the law school or university, is all is different, quite different from the sophisticated, tender and inspiring words of the spirit of law and virtues and honour…I Everything that a girl knows, everything that a girl has been taught loses its purpose, its meaning. The patient lessons of our professors fade away, replaced by the harsh new reality and the mere need of surviving by being disobedient, not quite sophisticated and pleasing not inside… And everything is changed, save for one – the general principles of law, which seem to be universal, no matter which preambule you are reading and which country you are inhabiting…

There is an old wisdom said by an ancient wage – ius est ars boni et aequi (the law is an art of beauty and virtue).. And it is really so.. The principles of law, perfect in their aim, are really a wonder, created by ideal minds for ideal conditions. And if we were ideal, the world of the Earth would have been a better place to live…and more boring.. Because the Laws are logical and rational, but applied over irrational individuals with illogical behaviour. This is the reason that a law is just a frame of acting, but it cant stop anyone from doing better or worse, or at least to follow the limits given… And in there is hidden the charm of the surprise, the countless nuances of the gray between the two pillars of humanity – the Black and the White. And we are those, who create the variety, by making choices – how to stick to the Law.

But sticking to the Law, to a given order or to a settled restriction also needs to know it. You cant follow a law which You don’t know. It is true that ignorantia legis neminem excusat, but this is where forgiveness appears, and mercy. For the purposes of laws are different – not only to create a frame to be followed and thus to give a freedom that not offend someone else’s freedom, and so – all to be partially restricted in our freedom at the sake of the mutual wellbeing – but also - to remind people in advance – what would be happened to them if they cant respect the others – this is the general prevention that excuses no one, but also saves our heads not to be served on a plate.

One of the fathers of the ancient greek theories of “Crime and punishment” is Aristotelis, who says that it is not wrong an ignorant to make a mistake, to break a law, but it is wrong not to be punished, for he will never learn what is the correct and by not being punished, he will never reach the calocagatia – the mixture of physical and mental beauty in one. So, it is not only a right, but even a human duty of society to punish the offender of the Law – for his own good.

The ancient romans based their Law system after the idea – errare humanum est- and people quote it even today, but many of them forget how it continues – sed perseverare diabolicum est.. And it is really so true. Because everyone mistakes and only the guidance of the wiser in patience and restrictions can lead the girl to the paths of perfection...

Yours, Eden, the hottest....

July Morning - Uriah Heep (Including Live in Japan 1973)

Happy July Morning, childern of the flowers! :)

I wished i could meet the rising sun at the seaside... of this first July morning... but i will heard the sound of the first bird singing here, in the valley of Sofia...

But one day i will !

sleepy kisses,
Eden