Does a fairy suffer?

Does she? And what about the genies? Those with bottles? And Those without bottles? Not sure..i guess no.. But today your girl, Eden from the garden, is suffering a lot... This is how spines turn into an illusion of a spine... too much reading in the library, not too heavy clothes in the windy winter days, some days without Yoga..and the result is that i just cant feel my back, it hurts a lot...and the chimera of a massage is just flying away, faaar away...

Today i met a guy... He was my best friend for almost an year.. He was my soul-mate and His heart was beating together with mine... Fortunately or unfortunately... He got tired of a friend like me... I dont know, i really didnt understand why He did so, but... I miss him, a lot.. He was with me in the mornings, waking me up with the soft kisses of the sun and putting me in bed with the golden dreams of places where it's only us there... Like a magic turning into reality. And believe me or not, but those moments were one of the happiest moments in my whole life.. and i would do everything just to feel like this again.. To be a flor Domini, dancing and smiling, just for Him, being His Eden, with a deep branded heart... :) Sounds perfect, isnt it? But perfect things in our world, on this small planet, into this realm..is just an illusion- perfect things dont exist, but we can try to touch them, no matter we will never succeed to do so..or..Who knows? One day? They say miracles happen.. :)

So, today i met Him, just for few minutes online... He was at work, i didnt want to bother Him and just asked about His concert... "Ok" He said... i asked about my song He promised to play for me there and He said it was done as promised, called me "my dear"... small things that soften and sharpen me at one and the same time... And again i didnt find strength and i wasnt strong and brave enough for to invite Him ... Funny, isnt it? But i really wish to know Him better, in real, to show him Sofia in daylight, to share some time and happiness with Him... Just as friends... And friendship is something so beautiful and pure that shouldnt be sacrificed at the name of love...cause love is burning and destroying, but friendship is something that lasts forever, and time just makes it stronger and nicer...

It's time for me to go now..
I really need a bed and hope tomorrow to feel better, cause the party for our last 8th December is about to begin just in 20 hours! ;) Have fun!

Kisses, Eden