понеделник, 24 декември 2007 г.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

I wish You all health, happiness and shared love!:)

Today i seemed to be quite a drooping flower.. I've never felt so lonely and sad... Even imaginative love, pretended love is much more than no love... And the human being was created with the only aim- to love and to be loved...

Whole day i am cleaning the house, trying to run away from the bad thoughts and the nightmares, together with the sounds and screams of Soulfly, Korn, Linkin Park, Deftones.. but it's just impossible :( Sadly, but true, fucking true.. Tonight i had quite strange nightmares :) My life was a kind of a law with particular articles in it and every article was a moment from it :) My lovers, my friend, everyone was there...and i was just reading the articles and seeing- see, it is so according to this law, so, that's the way it is.. I cant and i wont even try to show You the way i felt. Two words only- low and useless..

And , btw, don't make acrobatics in the bathroom! Please... I'll show You the result ;) when i upload the pics... So, You will feel not only low and useless, but also.... immobile :D Hope i'll be able to dance in January, but... who know...Hope everything to be alright! And again- no acrobatics in the bathroom and no doors, opened by legs...

brb, i have to put on the table ;) for the Christmas Dinner :) see You later

I am back again...And i dont know how it happened to me, but..i've never felt such a sorrow ever in my life! And emptiness.. And anger sometimes... To play with me as with a toy! Such a shame!
It's better just to stop here, cause it's...time to stop....

Yours, sleepy Eden

2 коментара:

niki каза...

Les sanglots longs
Des violons
De l'automne
Blessent mon coeur
D'une langueur
Monotone.

Tout suffocant
Et blême, quand
Sonne l'heure,
Je me souviens
Des jours anciens
Et je pleure ;

Et je m'en vais
Au vent mauvais
Qui m'emporte
Deçà, delà,
Pareil à la
Feuille morte.

Eden каза...

bisu, ma cherrie