Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

I wish You all health, happiness and shared love!:)

Today i seemed to be quite a drooping flower.. I've never felt so lonely and sad... Even imaginative love, pretended love is much more than no love... And the human being was created with the only aim- to love and to be loved...

Whole day i am cleaning the house, trying to run away from the bad thoughts and the nightmares, together with the sounds and screams of Soulfly, Korn, Linkin Park, Deftones.. but it's just impossible :( Sadly, but true, fucking true.. Tonight i had quite strange nightmares :) My life was a kind of a law with particular articles in it and every article was a moment from it :) My lovers, my friend, everyone was there...and i was just reading the articles and seeing- see, it is so according to this law, so, that's the way it is.. I cant and i wont even try to show You the way i felt. Two words only- low and useless..

And , btw, don't make acrobatics in the bathroom! Please... I'll show You the result ;) when i upload the pics... So, You will feel not only low and useless, but also.... immobile :D Hope i'll be able to dance in January, but... who know...Hope everything to be alright! And again- no acrobatics in the bathroom and no doors, opened by legs...

brb, i have to put on the table ;) for the Christmas Dinner :) see You later

I am back again...And i dont know how it happened to me, but..i've never felt such a sorrow ever in my life! And emptiness.. And anger sometimes... To play with me as with a toy! Such a shame!
It's better just to stop here, cause it's...time to stop....

Yours, sleepy Eden